Faded Memories

It's hard to find the words I would like to say 

Because as a man that can captive his emotions

And use them to create poetry 

Requires him to believe that

He has such a thing as a heart 

Yet the only source I seem to have 

Is an endless void of fading memories 

And shattered fragments of what was lost 

So, everyone in my memories that I have ever loved

No longer has a face 

Leaving me with no emotions or regrets 

Not even anger is felt 

For I believe that the animosity that would have been held 

Was swallowed by the emptiness that I had given into

Tell me what is a man that has no sense of his own heart 

What is a creature that can not even validate his own purpose 

Am I truly that misguided in my own self pity 

That I can not  remember

What it was like to see her smile 

To hold her hand 

Or even to look into her eyes

I must be broken 

But since I can not recall anything 

i guess It's not so bad

Maybe i'll wander 

Until I can find new memories…

~ Tony Paradise's Poet ~